Ali Barone

is it just my imagination or is someone who controls the front page of buzznet in LOOOOVEEE with mandy moore???

did anyone else notice she had been up on there for like 2 weeks straight now?

did she buy stock in the company or ....

what the f??

any thoughts on this i would like to know...

just got home from the halloween premiere ... GO FUCKING SEE THIS MOVIE. holy shit it was AMAZING !!!!!!! bloody mess.. scared the poop out of me!!! seriously... who is excited to see this movie?? if you are excited get more excited its gonna make you crap your tights.

here is a pic of me and kamilla vanilla before the premiere . and me in my demented child costume

to slip between a fresh set of sheets in your own bed after a long trip.. mmmmmmmm. so glad to be back. its a good morning. my peppermint eyes are sinking into this day. sippin tea for brighter eyes, ordering my thoughts in order, that shade of blue does not suit me so i will grow a thicker skin.. to show through a powder blue.
kitchen meditation.
the best.

i phoned a friend in a panic over this and that and her response was "venus is in retrograde"... what the fuck? something is ALWAYS in retrograde. i mean doesn't mercury go into retrograde like 5 times a year? and when that planet goes retro you cant even make toast. i feel like my sanity is in retrograde right now. the past comes hurling towards me warp 8 whether it be six months or six years ago, smack my face... turn the other cheek right hook and an upper cut. damn. fat lip and all i limp away because venus is in retrograde. fuck you venus. fuck you mercury. fuck you retrograde.

on this subject i am both the teacher and the student. i lead with my heart and follow with my face scraping against the gravel. fast friends? it takes 2... no finger pointing here, i am fully aware there are more fingers pointing at me (whats the expression?.. when you point the finger there are 3 fingers pointing back at you.. try it.. youll see!) i dont like to write blogs from the heart. my heart is mine and i do not need anything else stuck into it or ripping it apart. i breathe i love i feel i suffer i grow. whatever it is i do is mine and honestly the only time it seems anyone wants to notice it is when its fun to shred it to shit. i somehow have become independent of my codependency and even though i search and crave looming hovering overbearing perfection i seem to repel it. i used to live to be trampled on. observation: 2 kinds on people.. givers and takers.. and guess what.. its usually a pretty even score.. givers hang out with takers, ...visa versa ... you dont see a bunch of givers hanging out giving constantly to each other.. its boring whats the challenge in that> ? takers cant hang out taking from each other.. there would be no one giving therefore they would be stealing or literally taking NOTHING cause nothing was given. takers want to take and givers want to give and givers have a hard time accepting taking gracefully and takers never give unless they will get something out of it. its all insanely simple and ridiculously complicated. its like magnets . two of the same wont stick. i am giving my self a stomach ache.
and to any of my friends who read this... you know you are my friend and i am not talking about you. if there is a problem i will come to you.. not post a fucking blog about it.