Ali Barone

Self will. I used to think it was a good thing.. The 'will to survive' the 'will to live'  blah blah blah.  But self will is different.  Self will pushes up against the universe. Presses your face so hard against the mess you are in you can't see.  The universe always has your best truth at heart.  It is always trying to guide you in the direction that will give you the best results.  Then... SELF WILL.  Getting in your own way.  Cutting your nose off despite your face, pissing on the picnic and 100 other idioms.  If we can let the universe/God (WHATEVER you want to call it) organize for us we are safe. Good. Exactly where we are supposed to be.  Sometimes it's not the view we expected or the view we wanted but in the long run its the one we need.  It's like the guy at the airport who went to get a cup of coffee and missed his flight on 9/11.  But me...I am a complete baby.  i want I want I want I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEED.  And when I don't get what I want I keep trying over and over.  One definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.  I've said it before and I'll say it again... 

nothing changes until something moves.  

Do something different, let the universe give you all the gifts you deserve.  

And I am talking to you as well as myself... you are exactly where you are supposed to be.